To Mr. Alphabet,
Hi could be the most awkward thing to say but I can’t really think of how to start this letter, so I’ll basically start this with;
It’s been a while.. I like it that you were doing great and I hope that you’re really happy. I’m writing this letter to somehow sum up all the things that we’re unsaid for the past months. I’m sorry if I had to hurt you, but I’m not sorry for breaking up on you. It was actually the bravest decision I’ve ever made so far and I can say that it made me feel more of myself than before. The break up was not that hard for me but the flashbacks, memories plus the habits of having you in my life were the hardest. I had to continue my life without you thou it was such big change. However, it was a good change. Not much of the past to talk about so this has to end accordingly. Sorry if I had to be a real bullshit at some point in the past. Thank you for every little thing you’ve done for me. You’ve been a nice guy to me except that you kinda creep me out when you’re drunk or mad. You were the guy I’ve been afraid of letting go for the past years coz’ I’m afraid no guy can love me more than you did. But I was wrong. Thank you for letting me go. Thank you for giving up on me. Thank you for finding another love and settling on it and I wish you luck on your new relationship. Just don’t do to her what you did to me. Take care.
I’ve read that “almost” could be the most hurting word to hear. I thought so, but that was before I realize few things. You were sort of the closest guy friend I’ve ever had that time until we started giving each other mixed signals. Or should I say, I started assuming things. I really thought there could be something more than being friends, that we could cross the horizons of being JUST friends. We go out for dinner, we talk about things, we work together, we laugh on the same jokes and many other things that we did except for LOVE. But as weeks and months pass by, we realize that we don’t have to do something remarkable or something award winning for someone to give us a spot on their lives, coz they’ll give it to you even without asking for it. So I technically had my heart broken twice in a row, but I don’t have grudges on you. I just blame myself for thinking that there could be something more. You were almost there, we were almost there. But we never actually got there. And I thank you for not getting there, for almost was just an almost.